OH GOD! :(

Once again, the heart and the mind, doesnt connect .
Damn.
what have i been avoiding all this while?
maybe my so called " Un-mistake-able " plan went wrong.
ok maybe not really. but. ughh. nvm -.-

filled with mixed emotions.
shld i just shut the hell up?
and cry in one corner or sit there thinking..
honestly, my blog is like a bestfr substitute. i'll say everything. on my blog.

Have you ever felt so out of place? like you dont belong?
that INSANELY AWKWARD FEELING you get when youre all alone in the room?
and everyone else is doin their thing?
its prolly just me. but anyways. i felt that way.
i just wanna go to a far away place. lay down on the meadow and watch the clouds.
prolly just stay there forever.
and the little bunny rabbits are my friends.

im sure i'll be happier there than now, maybe a place like that can take my worries away.
and i may be able to feel God's presence.
coz right now, maybe im not looking or searching hard enough :(